Easter Mystery

There is something mystical or at least unusual about this photo taken the evening before Easter.  Does anyone else see it?  Double click on picture to enlarge . . . 

Daydream Believer

My teenage heartthrob Davy Jones died of a heart attack last week at age 66. I sat upright from the newspaper, suddenly remembering the life size poster of Davy Jones that I had taped to the backside of my bedroom door at age 12 or so . . . his dark brown hair, straight and shiny and longish, with bangs nearly to his eye lashes – his clear skin, bright impish eyes and mouth – oh, that mouth . . . did I not kiss that paper mouth till the lips might have sagged or collapsed from the slobbery pressure of my own lips . . . Davy Jo-o-o-o-nes . . . I would swoon.  That’s what young girls do – or did back in the 60s, anyway.

I had him positioned at a height two or three inches above my own. Davy Jones, a former jockey, was in real life only 5’3 or so. I might have already been taller than that at age 12, and so his paper feet floated several inches above my floor in order to accommodate the fantasy. He was wearing a deep maroon Nehru shirt with some glitzy trim on the edges, and the background of the poster was red – very impassioned.  I loved Davy Jones, the Monkee. I would use my paltry allowance money, walk to the only drugstore in our little town, and buy whatever new ‘45’ was on the market – “I’m a Believer,” “Daydream Believer,” “Pleasant Valley Sunday” . . .

I would rush through dinner on the nights that his TV show aired, run to the El-Khouri’s house (there were five girls in that large family) so we could watch the latest episode together. We each had our favorite Monkee, and strangely I had little competition for Davy. We’d talk for awhile after the show, maybe listen to some of the music I had brought with me, then I’d reflectively walk home in the dark night, humming to myself, “I’m a Believer . . . “ or whatever song I couldn't get out of my mind.  I’d be incited with new passions by the way he had moved on the screen – or grinned – or twinkled an eye at me – or even frowned at stupid Peter or Mickey.  He was the Monkee who really understood about daydreams and believing and all that real life stuff.  I was haunted by the desire to grow up and get out of that small town and become . . . well, a writer. What did Davy Jones have to do with a daydreamy teenage girl wanting to be a writer?

I wrote the first short stories of my youth in that bedroom, and I would pause all the while to glance over at his impish face looking back at me with the expression that never changed. There was something steadfast and promising and . . . believable in his expression.  Somehow, in my memory, Davy Jones is entwined with my first efforts to write.

As I continued reading the newspaper article last week, I learned that the Monkees wrote none of the songs which made them famous – humble Neil Diamond wrote many of them – and they were not allowed to play their own instruments. In fact, Davy was the only Monkee who could actually carry a tune well enough to sing! They were cast as actors first of all – actors acting as musicians. I never knew any of that in my youth.  That paper poster taped to my bedroom door with Davy's feet floating three inches above the floor was pretty close to real life, I guess.  But strangely, I’m not disappointed at all.

Charles Dickens in Virginia

There is great fanfare in England this month, and not only in England but in 50 countries worldwide, regarding Charles Dickens’ 200th birthday which happens to be today, February 7.  According to an article in Smithsonian magazine, “London is . . . buzzing with museum exhibitions and commemorations . . . festivals, guided walks, a reading of “A Christmas Carol” by great-great-grandson Mark Dickens . . . “ – and so on.

I begin my search for Dickens in Virginia . . .

In memory of his birthdate, and because he is one of my favorite authors of Christmases past, I planned to participate and honor him in some local way by visiting a place in Cumberland, Virginia where he once stayed with old family friends from England, the Thorntons, in 1842.

Only a day or two after his visit ended, the Thornton’s 13-month-old son, Charles Irving Thornton (possibly named after Charles Dickens and Washington Irving) died of unknown cause. Dickens was in Ohio by then, but was summoned by the child’s doctor to write an epitaph for the young boy. As it turns out, this would be one of only two epitaphs which Dickens would write in his lifetime.  The other was for his sister-in-law who died at age 17.  That site in London is one of the many stops on the tour for his bicentennial celebration.  I just hope those Englanders or other Dickens fans never come to Virginia to view the only-other epitaph he wrote.  As an American, I would be terribly embarrassed by what they might find . . . or most probably, not find.

The site is located in the throes of what is now called Cumberland State Forest, a great place for fishing and hunting and camping.  I’d already learned that the site was hard to find, though it was made an official Virginia Historic Landmark in 1980. I found someone with an official uniform who directed me to the site while turning and positioning his body in the manner of “as the bird flies.” I was to drive about six country miles down a single lane dirt road, look for a small sign for Oak Hill Lake, take that turn and drive another two or three miles.  “When you see two old barns, park your car, walk across the field in front of you, you’ll see a grove of trees, and it’s somewhere in that grove of trees," he said.  "But there’s no sign for it, so good luck finding it.” As I turned to walk away, he added, “It’s a good thing you’re here in February or you’d never find it . . . “  Then he mentioned ticks.

Somewhere in this grove of trees, he said.

I did everything he said . . . though the grove of trees was really the beginning of a seemingly endless forest.  I realized I was wandering on the old "Thornton homestead" where Charles Dickens had once wandered, land that has been systematically acquired over the last century along with neighboring homesteads for natural preservation by the State.  Slightly into the forest I looked up to see pine trees that had fallen onto other pine trees and were resting precariously at 45 degree angles above my head – everywhere I went.  I was careful not to walk too loudly lest I stir the surroundings and one of those dangling pine trees fall on my head.  I spent an hour walking, searching, softly talking to the woods . . . help me, Charles Dickens, to find the only evidence of your presence in Virginia . . . 
 

Sphagnum moss, my only clue

I saw a lone duck on the lake nearby. I stopped often and listened to profound silence. There was not a human being in shouting distance. I heard birds of a different variety than I hear at home. I saw a type of mossy growth – sphagnum moss, I think it’s called – which is the same variety I’d noticed on the prettified picture of the grave marker on the state website.   I let myself think that I must be nearby.  But I also knew I was wandering in circles with those ominous diagonal trees above me and the silent duck on the motionless lake and the eerie sounds of dusk approaching.  I’m an inordinately determined person, but this time I had to give up.


The official site I had hoped to find

While the rest of the world honors this author’s birthdate 200 years ago today with fanfare, celebrations, readings, and tours, it appears the State of Virginia silently lets its bit of literary history decay into the ground of Cumberland State Forest. 

This is the grave of a little child whom God in his goodness called to a bright eternity when he was very young. Hard as it is for human affection to reconcile itself to death in any shape and most of all, perhaps at first in this his parents, can even now believe that it will be a consolation to them throughout their lives and when they shall have grown old and grey always to think of him as a child in heaven.

-- Charles Dickens

One Mile in My Shoes

"The labyrinth is a reminder that even in chaos there is a path that leads to harmony."


The classic eleven-circuit labyrinth design

Pilgrims of the Middle Ages who could not make the journey to Jerusalem during their lifetime could reach Jerusalem in spirit by walking a labyrinthine path which came to be called “The Jerusalem Mile.” These labyrinths were built in monasteries and were designed according to hidden symbolisms, sacred geometry, and other mathematical representations.

Few of these original labyrinths remain in the world because they were intentionally destroyed or removed over the last 800 years or so.  The most classic labyrinth, to which people still make pilgrimage, is in the Chartres Cathedral near Paris, France. It dates to the year 1220.

I learned through happenstance – the most fun way to learn things – about an exact replica of the Chartres labyrinth, in pattern and dimension and everything else, located at an old monastery in Richmond, Virginia.  The center and final stone of it was laid on June 13, 2008.

Jefferson, Washington, and Lafayette may have walked here

"Richmond Hill," which used to be called Monte Maria of Church Hill, is the highest point in Richmond. It is home to a monastery that was built in 1866 out of two already existing pre-Civil War mansions. They say that Thomas Jefferson stayed in one of the two houses, and that George Washington and Lafayette attended dances there in pre-revolutionary times. When the Civil War ended and the mansions were left nearly destroyed, a group of young nuns were sent there with the directive from their Bishop to pray for the protection and rebuilding of this city which had once been the capital of the Confederacy. Those brave nuns and several generations of acolytes who followed them lived there until 1987 when the monastery was officially closed because the aging nuns were no longer able to care for it. Almost auctioned off for condominiums, it was saved by a group of diverse people who insisted that someone still needed to pray for Richmond. And so it was renovated and reopened by an eclectic group of religious leaders and other concerned people as a place to benefit those from all backgrounds who seek spiritual renewal.  

I can’t begin to understand much less explain the significance of the labyrinth which somehow speaks symbolically to our collective subconscious at a level where language is no longer the mode of communication. The most universally known labyrinth existed 3,500 years ago on the Greek island of Crete – home of the mythical Minotaur. But even before that, simple labyrinths were carved onto stone surfaces throughout the world.


Simply put, the rosette pattern in the center symbolizes enlightenment – and the path to getting there is circuitous and chaotic. The symmetry and complex geometric design, the symbolism, the eleven circuits divided into four quadrants, the perplexing puzzle of it all – that is an intellectual pursuit. For this, the Guestmaster at Richmond Hill recommended a book, Exploring the Labyrinth: A Guide for Healing and Spiritual Growth by Melissa Gayle West.  But the experience is in walking it.  The labyrinth is made to be traveled.

Even a small-scale model can be traveled, either visually or with the fingertip. Kinesthetic sensations will be aroused using the finger to trace over a sketch of the classic labyrinth – bringing the rhythm of it to life in our psyches and offering spiritual direction.

There's no wrong way to begin the walk . . . 

I stood in the center of the rosette pattern of the labyrinth on Richmond Hill, a spot which boasts a 270 degree view of the City of Richmond, trying to figure out my strategy for completing this puzzle walk. There is no right or wrong way to walk the labyrinth. There’s no particular starting point or ending point. You can’t get lost. It’s a thing to be done intuitively. I traced with my eye where each strategy of footstep might lead me. I wasn’t sure how to begin. If I had been in charge, I would have started at the center and systematically walked in concentric manner along each yellow brick, carefully winding myself to the outer edges, always knowing where I was going, until I could say that I had walked the Jerusalem Mile in its entirety. But the pathways just aren't set up that way.

And so, tired of my own thinking, I picked at random a brick in back of me on which to start my journey. This is a real mess.  That was my first impulsive thought as I saw my footsteps going to places I didn’t want to go . . . but then a twist made me go somewhere else . . . and a turn made me wind back . . . and another loop put me in the center . . . and so on and so forth. Not a single step went according to my plan. 

. . . and one should stop often to reflect and meditate

That’s life, I thought, and I sort of gave in and stopped along the way to take pictures of where my feet were planted and of how the sun shown either brightly on them or not at all – and also how the perspective changed as the breeze rustled tree branches above me, causing the sun to come and go – and how clouds did the same thing. I captured many of these pictures – not sure why I did so.  It’s the not knowin’ that makes it interestin’ . . . that’s what Eeyore says to Winnie the Pooh in unpredictable times, and I thought of this phrase as I walked the labyrinth. I occasionally looked up from my pathway to the cityscape beyond me, suddenly realizing in my heart that a war had once ravaged this city. I never comprehended such a thing before, and I thought that was a strange insight to receive. 



The City today as seen from Richmond Hill

When I finished walking the mile, still not sure what I had done or even accomplished, I sat on one of the stone benches along the spiny rim of this old monastery that seems to hang on a cliff overlooking Richmond’s Shockoe Valley and “Hell’s Half Acre” where slaves had long ago been auctioned like cattle. Perhaps those young nuns sat on these same high benches, I thought – for I could feel their presence and the chaos they must have endured when looking out over the post-war desolation and thinking of the directive they had been given – to pray for the rebuilding of Richmond – not knowing how it could ever be accomplished – and the James River that flowed unconcernedly through it all – then, as now.

Song Sung Blue

Panettone, the sweet holiday bread of Italy

I was doing some pre-Christmas tasks in the kitchen, wrapping a few presents and getting others ready to mail, and finishing step one in the two-day panettone process. I was playing a Neil Diamond CD, not something I normally do; I almost always play classical music, or “churchy” music such as the Gregorian chants, or Bach’s Mass in B-minor, or anything by Bach, when I am alone – but this time, a spate of the holiday blues tinged my activity, and I thought something different might help . . .

I tossed another chunk of butter into the mixer while “Sweet Caroline” began, thinking about how Neil Diamond had revealed a few years ago that he wrote the song with Caroline Kennedy in mind – she was only a child at the time – and I started thinking about how “they,” the media that is, had pounced on it and insinuated errant motives by Neil Diamond for writing a love song to a young girl-child. Whoever came up with the "journalistic" piece had projected his own perverted thinking onto Neil Diamond, I thought – and unbelievably it was repeated in the paper again last week, two years after the initial slander!  I was thinking about this while adding butter to the panettone and watching it assimilate its glossiness into the eggy dough. You must add butter to a panettone dough until it can take no more. The dough must reject the butter before you can honestly say it has had enough – and so you patiently add small chunks of butter until it refuses to assimilate anymore.

Those scoffers out there who get paid per scandal, they don’t know anything about the purity of feeling and the way a single image or thought will take on its own life and make a whole song or verse or story or painting become something you never knew it could become. He wrote the song while thinking of a young girl who had just lost her father in the cruelest way – that’s what I think – and then the song became a thing unto itself, far from the winding road he set out upon, but with enough memory or wits about him to name the song by the inspiration that brought it about, “Sweet Caroline.”  There is so much butter in a panettone that one could think of it as whipped butter and egg yolk held loosely together by flour and sugar, and studded with sweet dried fruits . . . 

I would wager to say that if Mozart were to have revealed that his Symphony #41, the Jupiter Symphony, for example, had been inspired by a young girl’s face which he saw on the streets of Vienna one evening or morning – such an admittance would not have raised doubts about his motives, but rather been a testament to the creative process.

The thoughts about “Sweet Caroline” and Mozart were done, and the butter was creamed divinely into the egg and flour mixture – it finally would take no more – and the silky yellow dough was massaged and rounded with my buttery hands, and tucked into a warmed and greasy bowl – and then another song began while I was scraping up bits of buttery dough from off the counter – “Song Sung Blue.”

Me and you are subject to the blues now and then
But when you take the blues and make a song
You sing them out again . . . Sing them out again

Who knows why things will hit us this way, but from out of nowhere, I felt the song as though he had written it to me, and I began to dance in the kitchen with my hands still full of butter and dough – dancing with a twist too, at least it seemed that way, back and then forward a few steps, a-one and a-two – and there was a bounce in each step, which is not like me, and my arms seemed to feel the beat too and they seemed to be doing the appropriate bends and turns in sync with the feet. I’m not a dancer or singer or musician, and I always felt so awkward when forced into that situation as a young person.  I never felt the holistic movement of body parts with soul parts, fluid with the bone. My bones never bent in the right places, like flailing wooden spoons or clubs – that’s how I always felt when moving my appendages to the beat of music – as though hitting things with wooden spoons. But I didn’t feel that way this time. A strange fluidity came through me and I felt like the bones were curving and softening and flowing with the music, like large flowing ribbons in a ribbon dance – that’s how my bones suddenly felt. So I went with it, this uncharacteristic feeling, and just enjoyed the dance while the music lasted.

Funny thing, but you can sing it with a cry in your voice
And before you know, start to feeling good
You simply got no choice . . .You simply got no choice . . .

The song was over. And I don’t know why, but the dance talent was over now too. The next song was “Brother Love’s Traveling Salvation Show,” so I stopped and washed my hands, and put away the tape and ribbon I had been using to wrap gifts, and then covered the panettone dough with a linen cloth for its first rising of 3 hours. Panettone means rich and fancy bread in Italian, and it dates to the Middle Ages when its rich ingredients could be afforded only once a year, at Christmas time. It’s baked in a domed cylindrical form . . . toasted, it is wonderful spread with more butter! Traditionally a piece is set aside until February 3, the feast day of Saint Biagio, the protector of the throat . . . and song. 

I fixed a cup of tea and sat down at the kitchen table, reminiscing about this experience and listening to Neil Diamond sing these words again, as though he had written them just for me and all of those with the blues at Christmas time: 

Winter Squash Nouveau

"Butternut" is a favorite among winter squashes 

My father would harvest winter squash at the end of a gardening season when the tomatoes had been canned and the evenings carried a snap of cold – though the afternoons were still ablaze with heat. He would push the wheelbarrow down to the bottom of the gardening hill – and there, he would silently clamor behind broad leaves and thick vines, ruthlessly snapping tough umbilical cords to free the fruit from its mother plant. The vines were left to wither and feed the ground for the following season.

The harvest would be spread out on the marble slabs of the patio floor.  I used to think he did that to admire the bounty he had grown, but now I know it was for the more practical and scientific reason of allowing the harvested fruits to “ripen” in the autumn sun – that is, to let the natural sugars convert to sweet starches. After several days or a week of such ripening, my father would once again load the harvest into his wheelbarrow and tote it down to the fruit cellar where he placed them on shelves alongside the canned tomatoes.

Before he did that, my mother would ceremoniously cook one or two of the fresh gourds for dinner. I still remember the aroma that would burst forth when she slit the top off one of the gourds – a cousin of the pumpkin after all, though a tamer and less obtrusive variety – its clean spicy scent reminding me of cooler weather on the horizon. She often served meatloaf for dinner that night, topped with a red tomatoey hot sauce – perhaps because of the contrast in color.  She was an artist at heart, after all, and dinner was her task at hand.  In hindsight, I think she very often chose dinner items because of their color potential . . .

Once cooked and mashed, she would coax the pale orange squash into a serving bowl of contrasting color – blue is nice, especially near a browned meatloaf topped with red sauce. She would throw another dollop of butter on the steamy orange peaks, then add a generous shake of black pepper to finish it off . . .

There is something fleeting about the taste of freshly picked winter squash as compared to its brethren that has ripened a few weeks. Now that I know a little bit about wine, I compare it to Beaujolais Nouveau, that first wine of the season that ritually debuts on the third Thursday of November. This un-aged wine is the much anticipated indicator of the quality of the year’s wine harvest.  The wine is purplish-pink, purposely immature, fruity, light and pale . . . and such are the qualities of the first winter squash.

The dark coolness of the fruit cellar, and time, somehow let the squashes grow deeper in color – and certainly sweeter – until by Thanksgiving Day the starches would have reached their peak of sweetness. After the holidays, only a month or two remained for eating winter squash – for it became wizened and starchless by March.  Gourds that had lost their vigor entirely were unceremoniously fed to the compost pile . . . and a new batch of seeds begun.

The most expressive gourds – those with crooked necks and bulbous tails – those squashes found immortality in the oil paintings done by my mother on cold winter days. The nook of a crooked handle might serve as placement for an apple or a handful of dried corn. I saw her do that on many occasions: retrieve an eccentric squash or two from the basement for her creative, expressive needs at the easel before dinnertime . . . yet one more way that winter squash might feed.

The Method:

Peel, seed, and chop winter squash (butternut) into chunks.  Add one inch of water to the pan, bring to a boil and cover.  Simmer until easily pierced with a fork (10 or 15 minutes) . . .

Drain.  Add salt and pepper and a large spoonful of butter.  Mash till creamy.  Place in a pretty bowl of contrasting color, adding one more dollop of butter on top, and a generous smattering of pepper.  

Daniel Boone's Divided Heart

Daniel Boone was a brave man . . .

On his 50th birthday, in 1794, Colonel Daniel Boone saw published the only work in his own words, “The Adventures of Colonel Daniel Boone,” a narrative of his exploits in the Kentucky wilderness spanning nearly 20 years.  However, after a life devoted to trailblazing and making Kentucky fit for habitation and an easy access to western territories, Daniel Boone began to feel “cramped in” by his own efforts – after all, Kentucky by the late 1700s had reached a population of nearly 200,000 people spread over a mere 100,000 square kilometers of land. He observes, "Thus we behold Kentucky, lately an howling wilderness, the habitation of savages and wild beasts, become a fruitful field; this region, so favourably distinguished by nature, now become the habitation of civilization.”

. . . and that is why Daniel Boone and his wife Rebecca left their beloved home state and moved farther west in 1799, to a less civilized place called Defiance, Missouri – not to conquer new frontiers, for he was nearly 70 years old by then, but to bask in the privacy of untamed territory and wide open space once again. Other sources say he left because of a nasty dispute about land and property rights. Not being a man to put up with such trivial legalities, he and Rebecca just packed up and left . . . Rebecca died a few years after the move to Missouri, followed by Daniel several years later. They were both buried in a neighboring town called Marthasville, MO. That’s when the real dispute begins . . . 

. . . and his wife Rebecca worked very hard

Kentuckians of the early 1800s knew what they had in their historic pioneer Daniel Boone, though I hardly think they could have foreseen the TV series with Fess Parker which we 20th century children would come to know well (and hum the catchy tune all our lives, if not sing the words as well). Kentuckians began to resent that Missourians had somewhat stolen the glory of what Daniel Boone stood for – the trailblazing legend, his general independent spirit, and all that America had come to stand for.



Daniel Boone's gravesite overlooking the Kentucky River 

 That’s when a few like minded independent Kentuckians went to Missouri one night in 1825 to dig up the bones of Daniel Boone and his wife Rebecca, and to bring them back to Kentucky for a proper burial in their home state. The couple was reinterred in a fine scenic spot overlooking the rambling Kentucky River that runs through the state’s capitol of Frankfort.

Missourians might have been appalled at first, but from what I’ve read they mostly just laughed, saying, “You didn’t even get the right bones – we’ve still got him!” You see, they claim that the plot next to Rebecca was already occupied when Daniel died – and so, the man who didn't like to be cramped in was buried at his wife's feet.

Kentucky says that’s not true – for they gathered up all the bones in the area. A modern day anthropologist declares that the skull buried in the Frankfort plot actually belongs to a large black man. This anthropologist concedes, however, that some other bones in the plot may very well belong to Daniel Boone.

Missouri replies, saying that the heart and brain of Daniel Boone had long since become one with Missouri soil – and no one can steal that.

The monument to Daniel and Rebecca Boone, Frankfort, KY

But Kentucky reminds them that Daniel Boone’s true heart and spirit will always reside in Kentucky! And so, there are two official plots claiming to hold the remains of Daniel Boone . . .